July 25th, 2009

     Bah!  My good work and will power came to a crashing halt.  Not long after July 4th weekend, I started backsliding and picking up junk food until I started eating again.  This week has been terrible.  I've run myself out of time quite a bit, then didn't pack something proper for work and ended up buying fast food or vending machine snacks.  My weight is back up to 160.  I saw pictures of myself during the scooter rally and my neck looks bad.  Still need to get rid of this double chin.  Definitely need to still lose the rest of this weight.  Not to mention my ass.  It looks as if that is where most of the excess weight is settling.  Starting to have one of those snail-butt figures, Yick!

     You know what the worst part of it is?  I pick something up that I haven't had for a while, like a chocolate pastry, and it ends up not tasting quite as good as I remember.   So there it is, 400-500 calories of total waste, followed later by 900 calories worth of pizza that quickly seems ho-hum after the first bite or two.  I probably should throw the rest out but I mindlessly (or in disbelief, "...no, I remember this was good!") polish it off. 

     I'm blaming the fat cells.  They are ready to eat!  Done without too long and driven to getting back their plumpness.  Just lay out a plate of butter, we're ready!

     Really got to get hold of myself.

     At least I kept up with exercising.  I actually increased my weights during upper body lifts and I am doing six sets of squats now.  Mylegs and hips still act scary, what with pains and stiffness the next day or two.  But overall, feeling a lot better.  I think my hips are just going to come along slower than before.  But I think I may be about ready to start using the machines at the gym again!